More Mystery

I think I messed up.  All was going really well with Mr. Mystery till I did something that I think caused a big change.  He was very upset one evening and it wasn’t because of me it was more of a mix of RL and SL issues.  This was all frosted with someone from his past returning to SL which he wasn’t at all happy about.  My heart was just breaking at how distraught he was.  He spoke of leaving SL entirely as we sometimes do when we just feel as though we can’t go on. 

I wondering what this meant for he and I so I asked “Does this mean you are giving up on us too?”  No answer to that.  Later that evening I asked again and got no answer.  So I was pretty upset myself but was cool and made no fuss about it. Said no more about the topic because he really had enough going on as is.

The next day he was on SL and SkyPe yet no messages so I thought he meant it was over so just quietly changed a few lines on my profile and my status here on the blog.  I made no changes to how I acted tho…changed only words and kept to myself. Then I waited thinking that if I misunderstood somehow he would correct me.  More waiting…when he did talk to me again he was upset with me for changing my profile.  Without putting his exact words here he basically told me he had too much going on to continue the relationship and by changing my profile..I had already given up on him.  I had messed up BIG TIME! 

I changed my profile back as it was before and told him I understood he was having a bad time but I would be patient and just wait for him, as I didn’t want to add to the problems he had already.  There has been lots of silence since and I’ve been doing my best not to bug him but just sending a few IMs each day to let him know I’m still waiting.  Simple *KISS*  {{HUGS}}  that sort of thing, nothing upsetting.  I did also take the time to go over that last conversation and discovered there was an answer there but I had missed it before.  The last thing he said was “This is not the end”.  At the time, I didn’t think it applied to us but to the other things he had happening to him.   That might have been my answer so making any change to my profile was the wrong thing to do. 

So it might be over with Mr. Mystery or it might not be.  I hope not!  I know the last thing he needs right now is problems from me to add to what he is already dealing with so I’ve just been waiting.  He’s definately worth some patience from me.  Feeling helpless as he goes through so much by himself, I want to help but I think trying to force anything right now would be the worst I could do.  Missing him terribly already but think he needs some space now from me.  I’ve been trying to give him that even though I feel like messaging him constantly till this is worked out.   Fighting the urge and just being quiet myself in hopes that he will find his way back to me when he is ready to. 

I’ll give it some time, he’s worth that and I’m in no big hurry to move on anyway so it wouldn’t hurt to just chill for awhile for him.  He’s welcome back when he’s ready to resume where we were….if he decides not to I’ll just have to accept that.  I took a risk on someone who was still very much hurting from what someone else did to him.  Knowing that doesn’t always work out, I became his stability, his tender loving care and was patient while he tried to heal.  I knew it was a longshot but felt he was worth the time and risk of my own heart.  I still feel that way…that’s he’s worth it to me.  I’ll wait. {{Disclaimer:  I revealed more than I normally would if everyone knew who Mr. Mystery was but since he is a mystery I said more}}

Store Update – Lady Superstar Jeans

A new addition to the womens stores are the Lady Superstar Jeans in various fashionable colors.  A two pack is only 99L.  They have a nice shimmer to them, accents on the pockets and are modifable for your custom fit.  Perfect for a casual night out or relaxing at home.  Enjoy! http://slurl.com/secondlife/Albena/223/107/32/

Laurel’s Shopping Picks – Moonshine

Moonshine is a store that I came across while shopping at the Clothing Fair.  It’s new to me and might be to you as well so I thought it was worth a mention.  Moonshine has clothing for male and female avatars.  Yes, guys…a place you can shop too!  Hair for both men and women, some modifiable shapes for men, swimwear, casualwear, and even PJs!  A large selection and the prices are not sky high.  I walked out with several purchases and I bet you do too! 

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Silver%20Lake/87/187/26/

Laurel’s Picks of Places to Go – Blue Fusion

Blue Fusion is a Jazz Club in Second Life but you will find much more than just jazz here.  You can find a full calendar of events here at http://www.bluefusionsl.com/index.php?page=schedule featuring both live music preformances and DJs.  The club has a full bar, numerous dances and welcomes both couples and singles. 

Great hosts here and the music has always been very good.  I can particularly recommend that you stop in Friday mornings at 8am SLT for the Blue Fusion Morning Coffee Mix with James Larkin.  A real friendly bunch of regulars are about for that!

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Blue%20Fusion%20Island/53/12/22/

Laurel’s Shopping Picks – Haute Couture

I stumbled upon this shop while searching for something else entirely but like what I saw so thought I would spread the word.  Haute Couture is a womens clothing shop with also a large section of hats.  If you are into hats..it’s a great place to shop.  A large selection here and the prices are surprisingly affordable.  Here I am looking over a new dress release called “Passion”.  Check out their lucky chairs while you are here and you might just get lucky!  The selection of evening gowns are just spectacular and there is also some cute casual fashions to be found.  Enjoy your shopping experience!

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Haute%20Couture/245/143/23/

Laurel’s Picks of Places to Go – Healing Planetarium

Mr. Mystery strikes again with another interesting place to visit in Second Life.  He’s being so helpful!  The Healing Planetarium is a different place to go sit and talk while enjoying a wonderous display of stars.  The ambient music isn’t distracting and you can just enjoy each other’s company.  There are both chairs and couches available so fine to take a friend with you too.   The scene above rotates so it isn’t a constant scene to get bored of easily. 

I thought it was a unique place to go and it was fun to sit a bit there while we talked.   The teleport takes you to an entrance way..click on the doors below the white text that says “Entrance” and select teleport to go in.  Once inside you can tp someone else in easily.  A tip from me…try holding hands with the emote “threads my fingers through yours and squeezes your hand in mine” then later “softly caresses your hand in mine, enjoying this moment of  closeness with you.”   Both men and women enjoy extra special attention so give it a try.    Yeah me and my emotes.  *winks*

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Ueno/208/110/22/

Mens Store Update – Long Cut V Necked Tees

I know I said the womens store would be next for an update but I came across these tees I made when I did the matching tanks and seems I had forgotten to put them in the store.  They are there now.  Nice for a casual look and you can pair them with those low cut jeans in your inventory that leave that cute belly exposed when worn with other shirts.  These tees are on the jacket layer so extra long to avoid the belly problem.  They have shadows and wrinkles for a realistic look and are mod so you can adjust the fit to tight or loose or anything in between.  The duo packs are 125L at the Mid Mall store or from the web via XStreetSL.

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Albena/30/106/32/

Laurel’s Picks of Places to Go – Midnight Reflections

Looking for a perfect spot for that romantic evening?  My beloved Mr. Mystery knows of a wonderful place.  We were out and about together last evening and the place he took me to was just incredible! 

Midnight Reflections is a large park within Second Life with relaxing music and lots of romantic places to explore with your someone special. 

We are shown here talking on a platform surrounded by brilliant blue waterfalls and emerald foliage.  There are places to dance, picnic and even a secret cottege where you can snuggle in front of a roaring fireplace.  Just stroll around and see which places you like best. 

 The scenery is just gorgous here and I don’t think you need to be part of a couple to relax here.  I was approached by a gentleman when I went back to get the landmark for the blog, so at least one single likes to relax there too.  I have someone very special for the romance in my Second Life so didn’t stay.  *smiles*

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Midnight%20Reflections/65/125/25/

Thanks To All of You

Thank you all for the comments on my Torn post yesterday and your IMed support in SL.  It is said you don’t really know the quantity or quality of your friends till you really need them.  I feel truely blessed!  I have friends I didn’t even know existed but do now. Del and I even talked briefly and that went well.  I’m glad he and I can be friends.  Del doesn’t like to fight and neither do I so this works out best for both of us.  All is well for he and his partner and I am pleased it is.

Mr. Mystery and I have worked things out, I believe.  Just going to relax and see how it goes.  Being apart just tore us both up so it wasn’t saving either of us any pain.  We spent a relaxing evening together which was what both of us needed.  I am thankful he told me what the secret was rather than having me find out on my own.  That makes a huge difference and enabled us to begin to work past it.  If I had found out on my own it would have been all different. 

Mystery is a wonderful person.  He has a big sentimental heart, he genuinely cares about people in SL and RL,  he’s sensitive and treats me like a fairy tale princess.  He also has an incredibly sexy avatar….that’s not something high on my list of needs normally but it’s icing on a delicious cake in this case. I have a wonderful time with him no matter what we do and I feel content just being near him.  His broken heart from his prior relationship is mending with time, TLC and my support.  What more could I ask for?  The story he and I have started together will continue.

One reader IMed that this might work out better for me with him remaining a mystery to my blog readers as then I can talk here freely without worry.  Yes, I can see how that would be a plus.  Many of you felt I was deciding for him and I took that to heart, I was guilty of that.  I put that decision back in his hands and that helped us.  I took advice rather than giving it this time.  Each of you added something that did help and I’m grateful for your support. *smiles* So I’m back floating on a puffy cloud again and later could be snuggled contently or dancing with him.  Mystery is for me.

Torn

Feeling torn today is the best way I can describe it.  The relationship with Mystery Man was going incredibly well and gave new meaning to “swept off my feet” to me till last night when the bomb dropped.  Seems there was more to his need for privacy then I thought there was.  He did tell me himself, it wasn’t like I found out from another source which does make it better.  What it was, I can’t say…not to anyone which makes it even harder as then you can’t even get advice to double check your own judgement if you can’t tell anyone.  Feeling so incredibly sad and accepting that most of it was my fault.  I trusted too soon and asked too few questions….questions that could have averted this from happening at all.  He’s an incredible person and we were extremely compatible in Second Life.  He even loved my voice *smiles* finding it comforting and even sexy. 

I will miss him greatly, already feeling the loss even though as of this morning we were still speaking.  His, “I miss you.  Be with me.  Share my SL”  just tears my stupid soppy heart apart.  I just don’t see a way to continue without making it worse for him.  He has no suggestions either.  I believe in the greater good which means sometimes taking a hit so things can be better for others.  I also believe that sometimes you have to do what is best for someone you care about even if that would exclude you, something I even drill into friends.  These two things combined with the fact I don’t keep secrets well make continuing a recipe for disaster.  I think my difficulty with secret keeping is obvious to all my readers here and he was a regular, so I don’t understand how he thought I could?  One slip could cause him trouble I don’t wish to.  I don’t wish to harm anyone even unintentionally and I’ve never been much of a risk taker. 

Heart says continue with him regardless and hope for the best.  Mind says to let it go because that would be safer and better for him in the long run.  So it is a battle between Heart and Mind complicated by his wishes to continue to be with me in Second Life.  If there was some way it could work out, I would take that chance but I don’t see any option available.  I know I always tell people to work it out if at all possible, trying to take my own advice but I’m at a loss this time.